Ugg...

In this horrible economy, am I wrong to want to leave a full-time position with benefits for a part-time position with none? On the surface, yes, but once you dig deeper, you see that there is a pretty good debatable point. When I came out of the hospital at the end of January, I received a letter from my insurance company that my insurance wouldn't be accepted or considered "in-network" at the hospital I was just discharged from!!! The major life altering hospitalization and its records were at a hospital I was not able to go to unless I wanted to pay out of pocket and that wasn't about to happen. Also, I was in a sticky situation, my daughter was just discharged from hospital on Tuesday, I was hospitalized in that same week, Saturday! What time am I using from my employer? I am in a precarious position in terms of my health, how stable or should I say unpredictable is it? My daughter's health, what if or when she gets sick requiring a hospitalization again. I enjoyed what I did, but I don't think, no I know I'm not able to deal with the high demand stress that job had to offer. The times that I was out of work, sometimes, I enjoyed being out of work home with my children, taking them to school and picking them up, taking care of errands during the day, seeing other stay at home moms and not thinking that I was one of them. This time, I want to work, but I know I don't have the stamina for a full time job, at least not at this point in my life. I am not fearful about getting sick again, it's just that my life and my kids' lives are more important. This is not fanciful thinking. I know that too much is at stake. If I kicked the bucket, I would be replaced at work, it's just a cubicle that belongs to the company.
What does any of this have to do with natural hair care, you may ask?... I'm sure I'm not the only natural lady in this situation. It's something everyone can relate to.
Peace.